Friday, December 7, 2012

When a baby is born so is a mother...

My intention was to write this post weeks ago.  As I am quickly finding out, my intentions for each day and what actually gets accomplished are two completely different things.  Becoming a mother has been the single most satisfying and life changing experience.  At the same time, quite honestly, this is the most difficult thing I have ever had the privilege of doing.  

My first day as a mother I realized many things, first, I have lead an extremely selfish life.  Up to that point, life was about me, my ideas, my wants, my needs, my desires.  My only real concerns or worries were my husband and pets.  I could come and go as I pleased and make decisions on the fly.  This is no longer the case.  Every moment of everyday I have to think about this baby and her well being.  I am her lifeline, my body is no longer my own, my life is no longer my own.  

The second thing I realized is how I have taken my own mother for granted.  I have a whole new appreciation for the sacrifices she has made for the past 40 years of raising and supporting my brothers and I.  Being a mother is a tough job that at times is thankless.  Luckily God made me to be Malia's mother, he has specially equipped me to care for her, just as my mom was perfectly designed to care for me.  

The third thing I have realized is that I have an amazing group of mothers around me that have openly welcomed me into this new club of motherhood.  They have supported me, carried me, loved me, answered questions, prayed for me, sympathized with me, encouraged me and helped me to navigate this crazy new world.  

In closing, I have also realized just how blessed our family is.  I have the most loving, kind, caring husband and best friend I could have ever asked for.  Aaron is such an amazing daddy to Malia.  Although incredibly difficult motherhood is everything I ever imagined and more and I thank God everyday for this incredible honor of being a mom.  I love our little girl more than life itself and I can not wait to watch her grow in the Lord and live out His purpose for her life.   

 Our first picture as a family - Malia 1 week old

 Malia and her daddy

 Rockin' her bow and her booties!

 Malia and her grandpa

One of our favorite pictures - Malia 1 day old

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